Stepping out

Back at training camp I had something really unexpected happen. One of our squad leaders walked up to me and asked “would you be one of our squad worship leaders?” I instantly said yes while thinking “what in the world am I supposed to do? I don’t sing in front of people, I don’t like leading, this is a terrible idea.” But I soon learned that I wouldn’t actually have to lead worship if I didn’t want to, my job (along with the awesome Mary Grace) is to be sure worship happens in the squad. Well I figured that was great! I mean planning things is my jam, I can plan things all day long and love every minute of it. But God had different things in mind. During our first week in Guatemala I was given a days notice that I would be leading worship Sunday morning with the help of Jacken on the guitar. We spent a good 4hrs whisper singing after “quiet time” to practice for the next morning because all day was spent in town. The next morning worship went great! Except I was told you couldn’t really hear me singing, haha oops! So I made a pact with God that I’d get out of my “you can’t actually sing loud” mindset by the next worship session. Little did I know that it would be that same week! Monday afternoon while Jacken and I were playing around with songs Tito casually said “I’m glad y’all are practicing, you’ve gotta lead worship Wednesday afternoon. Oh and it needs to be in Spanish.” Que my mini freak out. I mean leading worship is already out of my comfort zone, let alone leading worship in a language I can barely have a conversation in! But we did it! It took several hours, like really a lot of hours, lots of laughter, and some teasing the rest of the team that they’d have to sing with me. But we stood in front Wednesday afternoon and lead worship in Spanish for our hosts, teammates, and police officers. It was absolutely beautiful and I loved getting to watch everyone worship. I’m learning that Gods having me leave my comfort zone in many ways this year, the least of all is how He’s showing me I can lead.